Watching around the socmed timeline, probably until next week they'll still talk about MA & JC's wedding. Like.. every where and every perspective, media trying to embed me with their narration. I don't say its bad, but too much. I know it's a good news, we celebrate it happily and waiting what happen next after she's married.
But seriously, I had enough with the romantic-smart-good backgrounds-oppa combined by super-talented-Indonesian-girl, so we can have the same oppa when we dont have to same like her. Lol. We love oppa, mostly.
But have u ever think the oppa need someone who have a good life, like MA?
Wait before u judging me bcz my 'julid' side, please understand this is not an open letter hate speech. I want to wake you up because MA has giving us the enlightenment for have a good life. We should have a good life.
A good life will bring you to a mission of life. The mission of life isn't to be happy. I once read Prof. Syed Naqub Alatas write: "The Prophets also suffered but theyre know themselves, the meaning and purpose of life and where are theyre heading so their suffering is not a kind of unhappiness (shaqawah) but they knew their stations (maqamat)."
The mission of life isn't to be happy, Ralph Waldo Emerson once said that it is to be useful, to be honorable, to be compassionate, to have it make some difference that you have lived and lived well.
What i wanna say is, you dont need to be ashamed of yourself to anyone. All you need is believing your God and believing yourself when making a decision. Everyone can make a rumours but you can make a masterpiece that everyone tremors. Lol.
Ok listen, from my point, its true for super uneasy to embrace the moment when we should making a decision. Or simply every steps that we took is hard. We're not MA. But There is no coincidence in the world. Everything that is created has a purpose. Everwy purpose there are devices and resources. We have resources.
Some people go to Oxford and learn very hard for going there, some people left Oxford and create their path into something they called start up. Some people go to random colleges for make their parents happy. Some people trying so hard to get out the college with their thesis. And, some people never apply to college just because they don't want to.
Some people just sit in the room, watching their kitten fighting. Some people busy for making money. Some people missing their family who took study abroad. Some people enjoy-stressing in the office. Some people want to left the company. Some people never going anywhere and choose to close with their family. There are so many people in this world and their story. How cool Allah making all the different scenarios for 7 billion human being. And that's why, because we have speciality in our blood (free from God, a gifted), why we should equating yourself with others?
We are all different.
But one thing you should understand is, a hard work.
Ok, true, I believe in God giving us innate goodness. Everyone is special, but with extra struggle, someone will be strong. A strong person can decide whatever they want. You can choose to be wise or not after that.
Not only a hard work, of course we should be a smart worker person in this life. We need to have a collaboration with friends, need to taking advice from guru, professor or other.
As human, I feel tired to find who I am. Sometimes tired with my own expectations while everyone around me never give a pressure. Wonpil from Day6 said this shall too pass. And maybe it's just a matter of time. Everything that burden you today, tomorrow won't burden you anymore.
I, of course not as smart as MA, not good at cooking like Chef Renata too, not good looking girl you'll find on Internet. I'm just a random girl talking about her story when she's still alive, dealing with her mind, and just it.
But from what i know is, everything in this world have a meaning in the end of episode. So embrace every moment with joy and full laughter. Never regret the decision we make because they're not meaningless.
I remember Trafalgar Law from One Piece episode ever said, "The weak don't get to decide anything, not even how they die."
I can decide, so i trust myself isn't weak. I just wanna tell you guys, we can choose whatever we want. But remember everything have consequences. Be careful to choose, the time never give you seconds chance for regreting the decision.
S2. In the middle of night deep thought. 26.05.22
